This is an old video that I’ve never uploaded… it just felt too personal. Dates back to 2019.

At the time I was narrating my story, I hadn’t been to LA in over a year and a half, I was heartbroken from spending (wasting) years of my life, living in Los Angeles, which was also so tough on finances as you can imagine. I had been trying to make it there as a writer, meaning scriptwriter, which I eventually wanted to progress from, to a filmmaker. An indie one. That definitely didn’t go as I hoped.

So, came back to Paris, just sad. I found a job in Tech, and met my now partner. Things slowed down, and I actually found a happiness I never expected here. But I’ve always been bittersweet with my California experience, and I obviously miss a lot of things from there… I mean I did basically live there five years. And it was like five major years, from basically late teenager to full grown adult. I made myself there you know, personality wise.

It was just a shock coming back to Paris, I felt completely disoriented for the second time. First time being, moving continents to America 😅 which I’d never been to previously ! I basically signed up for living in a country like the USA, which I’d only seen things from on TV… that was insane from me. And Hollywood is every bit as insane as you can hear from people, and even worse at times.

Doesn’t sound enticing when you read it like that, but you gotta be warned : I wasn’t, and I had it rough. But I also fell in love there, not with a person, but with a city that is constantly growing & changing, and being so full of creatives, and the lifestyle was everything to me : beach, sun, nice people, healthy foods, caring for one’s body and mind; I just found my vibe there, and felt like I would never belong anywhere as well.

Unfortunately that part is still true, but I do love my life in Paris now. I wouldn’t go back without my partner, and he’s very much Parisian. But yeah, you give me another shot at this, and I think for sure I would take it. ✨