Memories from London
I’ve been sharing a lot of pictures and videos I’ve taken prior to getting my MacBook, just because I don’t want them to go unseen. So bare with me, because there’s still a bunch to go and once I’m done with that it will be all-new content.
It’s actually kind of therapeutic because I’m also classifying my files, and updating my online stuff – which has been a huge mess to deal with. At first, it seemed so depressing, like how the heck am I ever going to be done with that… but as the days go by, I’m really starting to see the end of the tunnel.
I feel relieved and freer now that I have a computer and I can plan, re-arrange and work on ideas I couldn’t let myself focus on. There are some people who will tell you that, you don’t need the “right equipment” to get going, but I don’t think it’s necessarily true – at least not for me.
I needed this to kickstart myself, and I’m so happy I managed to make enough to finally afford it, and that I never gave up on my priorities no matter how difficult some days were. Keep on believing in yourself, and do what it takes to get what you need to make your dreams come true.
“Be brutally honest but lead with the positive, because I might shut down and not be able to process the criticism.”
“Tout homme d’élite aspire instinctivement à sa tour d’ivoire, à sa réclusion mystérieuse, où il est délivré de la masse, du vulgaire, du grand nombre, où il peut oublier la règle « homme », étant lui-même une exception à cette règle.”
“Every select man strives instinctively for a citadel and its privacy, where he seeks mysterious seclusion, where he can be delivered from the many people and their commonness – where he may forget “men who are the rule,” as being the exception to that case.”
I can’t stop eating, the food in Paris is freaking delicious
I didn’t have the best of days… I got a pretty severe anxiety attack at work this afternoon. Which was totally random, and I didn’t really know what was causing it, but the more I think about it & I realize it’s because of all the unnecessary pressure I am putting on my shoulders – I meditated to get me through it.
I love that I have people that believe in me, because at some point I stopped believing in myself, and that makes me sad… unfortunely some have what may seem like high expectations. I’m just trying my best, and I can’t be who I’m not. I know what makes me happy, and what doesn’t, and I don’t want to force myself to go against my spirits. Because that’s actually how you destroy yourself, and I’m in a healing process.
All I know is, I am getting back on my feet. You can’t imagine the feeling of sensing my being been born again. I just hope I will make some proud… sometimes I feel like you’re kinda the only ones who care about my journey, on this blog or whatever – and I need to thank you for that.
Sunsets in Paris be like…
I love Summer. In twenty days or so, I’m leaving on a well deserved one-month vacation – again, I know what you’re thinking. I love taking an entire month vacay because then it feels like a real break, anything less than that is never enough.
I’m going to visit my family in Serbia, so of course, expect photoshoots with my cousin Mila. Crazy moments with my pets & fun hangouts with my Grandma – I honestly can’t wait ! In the meantime, I’m gonna enjoy this awesome weather in Paris.