These are the movies I’ve identified with the most
I picked six movies that I relate to a certain level, sometimes it’s just about the atmosphere not necesseraly the story, sometimes it’s more about the character’s feelings rather than what’s happening to them, but in all cases I’ve really felt close to what was depicted in my own way.
1. Martha Marcy May Marlene, 2011
I think everyone gets to have an interesting childhood to some degree; mine was weird mostly because there’s a whole bunch I just can’t seem to remember. It’s like I blacked out for most of it, and there’s this uneasy feeling about what actually happened to my life then. Which is why I relate to Martha in this movie, even her hallucinations and bursts.
I was a teenager going to high school when I fell in love for the first time, on sight… a bit like Adèle in the movie did. It was unexpected and definitevely not what I had imagined. It was something really special, and it changed what I thought of myself & the world forever.
Mallory is kind of a runaway, we don’t know where she comes from and why she’s the way she is; which is the type of person I became after I left my first love. I couldn’t handle certain things so I just packed and left everything, even though I was still way too young for a life like that on the road. I was secretive, but I met great people who ultimately lead me back home.
4. To the Bone, 2017
This was the worst peak of my life – back home, I had to deal with my eating disorder. I looked like a ghost of myself, my parents in an attempt to help me get through it gave me the one thing they knew would make me happy : they sent me away to study abroad in Los Angeles, it had always been a dream of mine. I met my best friend there and we became like family to each other, stranded across the world in the strangest of cities together.
5. La La Land, 2016
Then I think I fell in love again… but who could say really. It was such a short-lived romance if I can call it that way, but in the midst & glamour of the city of angels it felt like magic. I had never felt so light and safe before, it didn’t need words. That’s when I realized that my heart belonged forever to LA, and that it had chosen this place because of that moment in time, as the only place that I could ever consider as my real home.
6. Paper Towns, 2015
Then the real life struggles hit me, which I wasn’t prepared for and did not want to take responsibility of. I realized that maybe I could never make my dreams come true, but I did not want to just give up and become the cliché that is anyone else I knew. I didn’t want to fit in, and be part of society the way it was demanded of me, I wanted to be free so I ran… and I’m still on the run. Like Margo, and my best friends are supporting me & they mean the world.