A soft summer breeze is blowing, I’m hearing the leaves tickling each other and giggling with a distinct whistling, as if they are actually little human beings. Everything is alive in this forest, and I myself am part of it. I’m as human as the centenary tree in the middle of it all. I’m part of everything in this place, as much as they’re part of me.
My elvish skin is nourished by the sun rays, just like the flowers, and I blossom throughout the year in the same manner. I feel more connected to the ground I walk on, than the weird city lights I see being built in the far away. I wish they’ll stay that way. We don’t need artificial anything here, it’s already so full of life.
The first day of Spring was spent at home… due to the Coronavirus outbreak. I’ve been confined since last Thursday, this is day 8 for me.
I got sick just before finding out on the news about a possible contamination of the population, from a virus named Covid-19. It felt as if we were living through a lousy apocalyptic scenario, but it was all true.
My doctor asked me to stay confined before the government of this country made it mandatory. I was put on sick leave for about a week before things with the world started to get really bad… my doctor was protecting me.
He said that people with a fragile condition, such as mine, are better off at home, away from whatever might come. I haven’t lived a normal day since. But I’m keeping myself busy and optimistic.
I get to read more, draw a little, complete some puzzles, get some fitness exercises done, and most importantly, keep in touch with my family & friends since we’re apart. I’m lucky enough to be confined with the love of my life. I couldn’t bear this without him by my side.
I really want to kickstart things this year with a wellness-centered site, where I can share my tips & tricks… but here’s the deal. I’ve been going through a major existential crisis, for the past couple of months. I honestly have no idea who I am, where I’m going, or if I want what I want. Also, is it worth it ?… so yeah, bear with me.
I’m coming back here because I obviously have not made another platform to express myself yet, so this is it. I have a feeling I will be remaining here until I sort things out in my mind. I for sure, don’t want to blog anymore, but also I don’t want to stay in this phase of not doing anything while I’m rethinking every single thing, over and over, in my current life. And also, what that means for me…
See where I’m going with this ? No ? Me neither, welcome to the club.
Let’s keep things the simplest way possible for now. I’ve been on some nice travels this past year, I haven’t shared much of it, but I have lots of cute and edited photos ready to be seen. For this month, I’m going to publish those… and for the next month ? Don’t quite ask me that yet, but we’ll get closer to my endgame goal, which is becoming some type of a health guru ! I know, I’m kinda not the right picture at the moment, but let’s make a deal and not tell anyone.
Listen guys, it seems like I’m here for the long run. I’ve been back & forth many times around, but what can I say. This is me.
“He touched me and it felt, as if the stars were dancing across my skin.”
He said “thanks for the memories”
Because that’s all I’m good for now,
Being remembered as someone that was.
Soft summer nights with you, swimming in the pools, enjoying sunsets views from our room, eating whatever we wanted and making love while breathing into each other’s hearts a wild fire… I still love you.
I keep seeing posts online of people being so excited about the next thing in their lives… they can’t wait for what happens next, and most of what they seem to be doing is wishing to be already then, but once it’s happening, it’s a blur because they’re still thinking about whatever happens after that…
It’s kind of exhausting and sad, in my opinion. There’s so many awesome moments that they’re not fully enjoying, and it’s like – just stop, because it’s worth it. I practice comfort & pleasure. I dwell in the little precious moments, and I love just being in the present. It makes me feel empowered and relaxed. There’s a beautiful inner happiness from doing that, so I encourage you to try it as well.
My boyfriend and I went to this amazing Israeli restaurant in Paris, named “Shouk” the food there is extravagantly tasty. In appearance simple, it’s actually elaborated in savor, a good cuisine that fills you up pretty neatly. Then we had coffee at “Craft”, cute spot.