Your worth is not measured by your productivity

I can’t stop eating, the food in Paris is freaking delicious

Your worth is not measured by your productivity
I didn’t have the best of days… I got a pretty severe anxiety attack at work this afternoon. Which was totally random, and I didn’t really know what was causing it, but the more I think about it & I realize it’s because of all the unnecessary pressure I am putting on my shoulders – I meditated to get me through it.

I love that I have people that believe in me, because at some point I stopped believing in myself, and that makes me sad… unfortunely some have what may seem like high expectations. I’m just trying my best, and I can’t be who I’m not. I know what makes me happy, and what doesn’t, and I don’t want to force myself to go against my spirits. Because that’s actually how you destroy yourself, and I’m in a healing process.

All I know is, I am getting back on my feet. You can’t imagine the feeling of sensing my being been born again. I just hope I will make some proud… sometimes I feel like you’re kinda the only ones who care about my journey, on this blog or whatever – and I need to thank you for that.

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I prefer the world in my head, where magic exists and time does not.

Fondation Louis Vuitton

I prefer the world in my head, where magic exists and time does not.I went to this amazing contemporary museum in the north of Paris, the architect is Frank Gehry – they’re having the best exhibition I’ve ever been to, on Impressionism. They have these beautiful famous paintings, going from Renoir to Degas, Manet & Gauguin and so many more ! It’s a sight for sore eyes : I’ve only ever seen these works of arts in books before…

My boyfriend came along and he took those two pictures of me that you’ll see below; I really enjoy sharing a cultural moment with him, it truly is important to me as Art has always lifted my soul and spirit, and I feel blessed I can have that with him as well.
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My phone has been on silent since 2007

Fancy evenings out

My phone has been on silent since 2007I didn’t use to like going out at night before, I was such a dork… since I met my boyfriend, he takes me to nice places and I find myself discovering a new side to the world that’s also pretty and really fun. Restaurants are my favorites of course, I’m in love with food. I also like ending up at private fashion events, or at Maxim’s to enjoy great music. It’s become a game because we never plan too much, so we go from a surprise to another and Paris is so good at that.
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Every time i want to read a new book, Netflix releases a new show.

Hello, I’m getting back on tracks

Every time i want to read a new book, Netflix releases a new show.I’m trying to be more active by blogging and posting on social media, even though I just went through major anxiety issues for the past nine months… now that I feel stronger, I want to do the best I can because I owe it to myself after all. You’ve probably noticed I picked up Twitter, Instagram and even Snapchat again 🙂 well trust me, you’re gonna want more. I have a lot in store with what goes through my mind daily, and I’m ready to express it.
Every time i want to read a new book, Netflix releases a new show.Every time i want to read a new book, Netflix releases a new show.Every time i want to read a new book, Netflix releases a new show.

ugh, i wish summer was already there…

Winter lasts for so long in Paris 😦
ugh, i wish summer was already there...

March is almost there, but the weather still sucks in Paris…? I do miss my beautiful, sunny California ! I daydream about LA on a daily, even though living here now has its perks. Besides the art scene, and amazing architecture I stumble upon my walks, there’s so many travel possibilities I can explore.

Not now, obviously it’s too cold I ain’t going anywhere, but I was thinking as soon as spring shows up I’m going for weekends to other countries so I can do photoshoots and visit !
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MADISON KENNEDY
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You can’t keep an angel down

Sunsets in L.A.
You can't keep an angel down

Tomorrow is my birthday… another year went by like it was nothing. I still haven’t achieved my dreams; at this point of my life I’m almost giving up on dreaming, it seems pointless. Wanting to do things that are much bigger than me, for the sake of something as innocent as creating and producing art sounds more impossible with each passing day.

But this year didn’t mean nothing to me… I got to be with the people that are dearest to my heart, some I hadn’t seen for years. It was a gift, a blessing even. I could go as far as saying a miracle for one particular person that I thought I’d never see again, and that impossibility made possible restored some hope and faith.

I never realized how important love and caring is until I was met with it unconditionally. It’s just a fleeting impression that I never want to go away because it’s the only thing keeping me afloat, driving me to become stronger and better. I never stopped loving that moment in time that shifted my life forever, I’ll never do.

I’ll always be chasing it in the back of my mind, even if the pain this past life brings me could kill me.
You can't keep an angel down

MADISON KENNEDY
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Weekend vibes in Malibu

Point Dume
Weekend vibes in Malibu

The beaches of Malibu… they’re the best ones in California. I love to go on little hikes to Point Dume for the amazing views you can only see from up there. I sometimes even see sea lions ! You can actually notice a bunch of them in my pictures here, if you zoom in 🙂
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MADISON KENNEDY
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