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Geekland magazine

~ Madison Kennedy
  • Sharing all 13 covers from back in the day !

Wow, I went through a nostalgic rabbit hole this week !..

Since I decided to stop blogging so I could focus on a bunch of new projects I have going on, I also decided to sort out all of my “old” websites, so I would only have a couple I’d update on a regular basis. The ones that really matter basically. Although, because I have a nostalgic heart, I will definitely not be closing the other ones. I’ll just keep them there to look back on… in the vastness of the internet.

Anyway, I noticed by doing that, that I still had some traffic on my Geekland magazine websites. Which is funny because I kinda stopped updating those when I started dating my current boyfriend, which was about six years ago now… he was so not into my geeky quirks 😅. I actually have closed the main blog site, but I kept the instagram account because I follow some geeks and celebs there, that I don’t want on my main photography account. Same goes for facebook, it only stayed up because it was linked to it.

It was so messy though, that I had to delete a lotta things from there, because if I am keeping it on and public, I want it at least to look good for those who come by. But I have to say, I found great joy in updating them during the course of this week 😂. Honestly, it allowed me to come back to some hobbies I forgot about.

So you can still follow, or check it out at…

Geekland magazine instagram
Geekland magazine facebook

But you can also go read old entries on this blog, right here : Geekland category.

And obviously, if you have anything geek related to share with me, you can also write me at geekland@mail.com

An end is only a beginning in disguise.

~ Madison Kennedy
An end is only a beginning in disguise

Hello to anyone who’s still reading this blog !
I cannot believe what I’m about to do, but I am ending things here 😭

I have loved blogging since I was a teenager, but also back then blogging was all the rage. My life has changed since, in all areas, and I’ve grown and evolved, and I have different priorities now; and you can certainly feel that since I’m not often on here anymore.

So basically I want to further my photography work, so I’ll be switching to a more professional looking site, with a portfolio and price points for photoshoots and what not. I will of course share a link right here when it’s done.

As for all the other websites I’ve like opened up over the years, I’m also not gonna cater to most of them. I guess I’ll just be keeping what helps me actually get discovered, and consequently can also pay for my projects… I’m not trying to be stuck.

So I’ve got a big cleaning to do when it comes to my online presence !

You can always follow my (almost) everything on my instagram : click here. I update with recent photos & videos quite often there, and it will be my main tool of work from now on, so it’s like a new blog platform basically.

I thought I’d feel sadder about this decision, but really I’m just nostalgic. Since I’m not closing the blog, I can just come back to it for memory sake anytime, just like you can; but I don’t regret doing this, it was pretty overdue.

This blog has definitely helped me get where I am today, and that’s something I’ll be always grateful for.

Thank you for following me over the years, I’ve appreciated it so much,

Love y’all and see you soon okay ! xoxox

Madison Kennedy 🤍

I could scream so loud it would shatter my own skin

~ Madison Kennedy

My computer broke down more than a year ago, and it’s been really challenging, actually almost impossible to get any work done… but oh well, I didn’t think it mattered because I thought so little of myself : like, why would anyone care if I just stopped doing what I was doing…

and what was I doing anyway ? I didn’t have a clear answer to that. I would just go out for fun and create some photos or video content, that I would then share here… but to what purpose ? I literally had none. I just knew I wanted, or more like, I needed to do things the most creative way that I could think of, but I didn’t want it to be meaningful or that deep. I wasn’t taking myself seriously in any way, so I didn’t want anyone to think that of myself.

I abandoned everything pretty much, even though it didn’t happen in a day. Over time I just figured maybe I’m not good enough for any of my dreams, that it’s not actually worth it to waste my time (as if my time was that important that I should be careful of what I’m spending it on) on things that are unreachable to a person like me… someone who just doesn’t have what it takes to take her ambitions further any line. So I declared myself to be incapable to be like those iconic people I was admiring, and who were ultimately motivating me still to keep on dreaming.

And that was so easy, to let go of myself, that it became scary… somehow a terrible fright installed itself in me, so profoundly that it unabled me to try and succeed at anything that could potentially get me out of what had become, a depressive state. I didn’t look the part, but I was and still am unhappy because of my life choices. My entire life I’ve been scared of abandonment, and it ended being me who did this to myself. I’ve never been so hurt as to realize how bad things got because I led them to it.

This is a long torpor I’m trying to get over. I’ve been awake for a few moments while in it, but it’s taken control. No matter how many times I wake up, it pulls me back to drown me again… and I feel like I’m a good swimmer, but most of the times it doesn’t help. I’m on my way home now, I can see the shore. I just need to keep swimming and if only I can reach it, then I believe I can save myself.

It all always mattered, I just wouldn’t have faith in me. Those small, or big, or whatever size that dreams can be, we’re all entitled to try and nothing should make us doubt we can’t have them become a reality. They’re as real as we are. So long it’s in your head living, then you ought to birth it and gift it to the world. We all deserve to trust in ourselves more, and spread that amazing love that is ultimately what is saving me from those dark times I’ve been through.

It’s my boyfriend that makes me love myself more, and it’s empowering everything in my life. I’m going to turn this difficult period into something beautiful, create a bunch of butterflies to lift me up above. I have some good news, something that’s going to make a huge change in my future : I’m set on getting a new computer… and that means, I’m finally ready to invest in my dreams.

I am the “Bye Girl” !

~ Madison Kennedy

I promised you guys an Advent Calendar type of month, posting a blog update every single day until Christmas… I got so excited by the idea but I completely lost track of it, and today is my 10th post of the 24th I said I would do;

I still want to get them all done, but I don’t think I can manage to post a bunch to fill out those other days I missed out. It’s going to be a lot of work, and with my current job and private life, it wouldn’t be reasonable. & I know some of you are going to think there’s no bother in trying to do that anyway, because I understand that you’re glad I came back blogging at all, but it was important to me as I challenged myself and I wanted to succeed in that matter.

Plus it was highly motivating, as the new year’s coming I wanted to change my bad habits and adopt new ones, so I can become a more hard-working person, someone who goes after her dreams and completes them.

I was watching the new season of Fuller House on Netflix the other day (…yes, I’m desperately addicted to Netflix) and in one of the episodes DJ was referred to as the “bye girl”, the kind of girl that forgets all about her friends and other commitments once she gets into a relationship : I realized that was me !

I started a job at Apple last February, it’s my first job & I really wanted to imply myself fully in it. Then I met my boyfriend with whom I fell so in love that I wanted to spend all my free time with, leaving out my personal projects unaccomplished.

It was him who started motivating me to take back my projects, and come back to this, between other things. I feel very blessed to have someone like him in my life, I want to respect my path and I won’t let go this time around, even if it takes me a couple tries before I get there. I will not be the “bye girl” – I got my wake up call.

The Advent Calendar

~ Madison Kennedy

Here’s to a new me !

I really love Christmas, after Halloween it’s definitely my favorite time of the year. I get all excited about the lights, the food and gifts ! People seem more merry, we sing those old timey songs that we love, we enjoy our family and friends, and take the time to ourselves as well… it’s really just a month that’s dedicated to celebrating life and all the good it brings us. So, I’m super happy to say hello to December !

In that spirit I’ve decided to come back to The Blog and bring the tradition of the Advent Calendar on here; my idea is to give you guys a new blog post every single day, until Christmas… it’s pretty much like Vlogmas that we have going on YouTube, except it’s blog-focused. The good thing about this is I can put all my joy and enthusiasm for this month, by making posts related to what I love doing, to how it makes me feel, and simply share all together that awesomeness.

I’m ready to hit it off and be blogging again, because I’ve missed this so much and it’s a huge part of me that I should never forget or give up about.

Love you ! xoxox