Last year’s summer in Serbia
One of my favorite places to go to when I’m in Serbia 🙂
This waterfall, near the Resava Cave, is a must see ! It’s truly beautiful and peaceful there. They have a traditional restaurant that serves amazing food… you gotta try it. &We just love going there as a family hangout, it’s always so much fun and we’ve had many delightful moments.
Sometimes the outside doesn’t match the inside…
I remember I didn’t feel pretty that day. I put on some nice clothes and I tried to make myself look the best I could for my boyfriend, but in reality, I had a lot of anxiety and was too self-conscious about my appearance. He was kind enough though to make a whole photoshoot happen… that was a special feeling I will never forget, and sometimes when I’m down I wish to relive that day somehow. Because he made me feel pretty.
I’m someone who deals with a lot of sadness and issues, but I won’t show it. I’d rather just put on the best fake smile I can, and forget about me, focus on whatever else I can. Some days I even wish I could erase myself, and some other days I manage to do so. I think pretending that I’m fine is a way to combat what’s making me feel bad, and that’s why I keep doing it. The most important thing I do is to get up & push myself to go through a daily routine, which is helpful to maintain my stability.
Should we let others dictate how we look…
I go back & worth with that question in mind – assuming your boyfriend likes your hair a certain way, or color, should you actually keep it that way only to please him ? Even though, it might not be a true reflection of who you are, or want to be.
I feel like for women, anything that has to do with our looks is so important to us, because that’s how we express ourselves. The patriarchal society tends to repress women’s freedom, voice and of course their appearance.
Most men will not understand how it is an every day challenge for a woman to let herself be. They’ve been raised in an unfair world that benefits them, so they think even how a woman keeps their hair or dresses up, is a due to them.
The reality that needs to be spoken out, is that it’s not. Women have let themselves be submissive over the generations, mostly out of a survival instinct. Which is totally comprehensible… we are also the nurturing souls, and if we cannot please a man enough, then how are we supposed to birth families.
But we are not slaves to their needs. We have to listen to what we want, because they don’t. If you like yourself the way you are, then stop listening to whoever is trying to change you to benefit them. You’re going to end up like a broken doll that doesn’t even recognize who they are anymore.
Your mom did not give you life, so that you would sacrifice it to an underserving man. You are not the victim to women’s past. You will rise for yourself, and for us, and we will put an end in time to men suffocating us. Be proud to be a woman, and act strongly by choosing what suits you.
Hello, I’m getting back on tracks
I’m trying to be more active by blogging and posting on social media, even though I just went through major anxiety issues for the past nine months… now that I feel stronger, I want to do the best I can because I owe it to myself after all. You’ve probably noticed I picked up Twitter, Instagram and even Snapchat again 🙂 well trust me, you’re gonna want more. I have a lot in store with what goes through my mind daily, and I’m ready to express it.
HOTEL PARTICULIER MONTMARTRE – Victoria is posing for me this evening; we tried to get into the Chinese New Year’s vibe with the reds, but my photography ended up looking quite experimental (or “artsy” as she said). I actually like these unexpected results more, it gives a special feeling to our photoshoot.
Madison Kennedy 