“Men can be ignorant, so imagine my dismay when I woke up one“

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I was feverish from the night’s before lack of sleep, and when I opened my eyes in the morning, it was only to realize the sun hadn’t come up yet. I couldn’t stay in bed, I was feeling half dead; my whole body was giving up on me and so was my mind following… but I couldn’t keep still anymore. Every muscle of mine was under tremor, the images of what was around me were driving me to madness, twisting and pitching in every way, I was hallucinating my demons awaiting in the shadows, yapping at my distress.

I could have vomitted the rest of what was left alive of me on the floor right where I was standing, but instead I dragged on with a heavy heart to the door, and locked it after me. For the first time in weeks, I was feeling the wind blowing on my face, sharply… the season of fall had already arrived and transformed the surroundings in a bucolic celebration. I was stepping out into a marvellous nature, barely lightened up by dusk, yet so colorful that even the lack of rays couldn’t blind me from it.

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I didn’t come to perceive until it was too late & I couldn’t recognize where I had walked to, but the woods were encircling me. I had gotten lost after probably walking across fields and the valley of Vikidlek — from what my weakened memory could remember of the maps I had looked inattentively upon, fueled by a dying curiosity more than actual interest, that would have been the most appropriate way.

For a brief moment I got my senses back, only to feel panic studding to my spine, making me as dizzy as if I was standing on a cloud and were about to drop from this earth’s atmosphere into the space’s void; I knew worse things than wolves were haunting these woods, and the notion that I had managed to unconsciously cross after a thirty kilometers walk, up and down hill, to get there, terrified me.

When finally my legs gave up on me, I fell to the ground on my knees. It was as if something had pulled me here, against all the will I had to stay away, crippling my body until I entered a trance from which I woke up only when I arrived to the place I feared the most… where I got my first encounter with a creature with such dreadful features, that I couldn’t believe was real.

I remembered running away from it, but it caught me in a single jump and scratched the whole left side of my back. I laid here for hours, thinking it would come back to kill me, but it didn’t. I gathered all the strength I could to get myself back home, and heal my wounds, but by the time I got there, they had disappeared. I thought I was going mad, the fever started tangling me and I couldn’t trust my memories anymore… It has been a month exactly. I can’t explain myself any of this, but something is telling me, tonight the creature will meet me again.

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I have been absent from the blogosphere for a while. There’s many reasons to that, the main is I was overwhelmed, and I am gonna write down here why;

– At the beginning of September I registered for art classes. I thought it would be a good idea for me to explore a more artistic side to myself, and taking classes to learn about these things, and having homework to deliver, makes me serious about it.

– This is why my blog is going through a change. I want my blog to represent who I am currently, and that is someone who is learning so many artsy things, that I want to share it on here. I guess, it has already started for some time, but it’s becoming more of an art curated blog, where I also share my new works.

– My new works should have a somehow more artistic side to them, because I am trying to achieve that, and I will also always share what I made for my art classes, as homework or whatever, everything I do, on this blog. For now, it’s focused on still photography the first semester, but later we’ll be able to explore moving images, as in video : which I’m the most excited about, it has always been my favorite hobby.

It’s kind of an extensive class that I started, it’s a three years program, and they said because of that we’ll be able to cover topics in almost all the arts, which includes visual arts of course, but also performing & literary arts. I am attending these classes in Paris (France), but since I am traveling often and I have to deal with many of my websites on a daily basis, they’ve allowed me to receive my classes online when I’m out of the country or if I cannot come to class; that way I can never miss out on homework… which is great *sarcasm* 😛

– I am officially moving on October 9th, to a really tiny studio in Paris, in the 10th arrondissement. Perks of my new place is I have a view on the Sacré-Coeur (The Basilica of the Sacred Heart) which is beautiful, and I am a street away from the Canal Saint-Martin, it’s a chill and colorful neighborhood with lots of young people such as myself. I decided moving back to Paris so I would be able to attend more classes at my art school, instead of taking most of them online. It’s really important for me to get as much involved as I can, and try and bound with classmates and teachers. Also the other good thing about living in Paris, is I will be closer to my parents and my two sisters who live there as well.

This is why I have been feeling overwhelmed, and put aside blogging for some time, until I figured things out in my life with these changes. I am back from my trip to Los Angeles, and I’m ready to concentrate and work harder on everything. I will find and make time to accomplish what I want, and I’m not giving up on my websites, I’ll be updating more often now that I am back to reality… from my vacation in L.A. 🙂

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are ?
Physically barely legal, I’d question my reflection in a mirror to ascertain if I am or not a minor. Mentally, I’d feel like I’ve lived thousands of years and hundreds of different lives.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world ?
Humans; which are beings incapable of change, no matter what history, science, love or faith was taught.

Why are you, you ?
Ask God and his nemesis.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil ?
If you don’t forget there’s also a third possibility.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do ?
This world’s constraints are as they are because the majority of people let it be.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake ?
Humans aren’t by nature masochists.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be ?
Break free, be strong, and don’t let things be for yourself. Care.

What are you most grateful for ?
Endings with closure.

Has your greatest fear ever come true ?
It will.

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich ?
Why would I work in order to gain happiness. Why would work be what enables happiness… I’d be a thinker, a traveler, an experience-seeker, an adventurer, a lover, a believer; Freeing yourself from most social restraints, and letting yourself live should be happiness.

Lizzy Gadd makes breathtaking photographs. She shoots amazing landscapes and usually places a woman in the scene, to give a sense of the immensity of the place and human awe towards it. Check her photos here.