“For people who are supposed to love unconditionally, families seem to have a lot of conditions. One day I want to make a family with no conditions. Maybe that’s all I really want.”
Owen and Olivia in Maniac
“Loyalty means never giving up on someone, even through doubts and differences. It’s a noun with action fueled by shared experiences, which are memorable, meaningful, and irreplaceable. But loyalty isn’t blind love, it shouldn’t be taken for granted. Loyalty means telling someone when they’re wrong when no one else will. And loyalty means apologizing when you’re wrong, because of the trust you’ve built over time. Loyalty is true friendship.”
Willowdean in Dumplin’
To fall in love but not know how to love is a total dichotomy. Yet, here you could be contemplating losing the person you hold dearest because your mind doesn’t hold the answers to their needs. Your actions, whatever they may be, could never be enough and this love that transforms you doesn’t do a thing to them. Can you imagine how painful and beautiful that can be.
Love is nothing but a poisoned gift. Don’t they say that the greatest loves are all tragedies… if you cannot explain it, but feel it tearing you apart, isn’t that the greatest of love ? How else would you describe these feelings that are destroying you more than anything you thought you could bear. Love is testing your survival, until you’re done and cannot take it any longer.
From the Spanish word Amor, it becomes the French to Death – “mort”. So in the same word you can find your own felicity and assassination. Because love is all that, it’s murder and suicide. No matter how many tears roll down your cheeks, that sparkling liquid is nothing but your own weakness and powerlessness towards what has to inevitably happen : which is your end.
Just like in Lewis’ Carroll novel, I followed a charismatic stranger that led me into some sort of rabbit hole. On the other side was a Wonderland I was not able to escape. I went by a path that led me into the deepest cores of that peculiar world. I saw and lived things I had never even imagined. My wildest dreams came true, but also my worst fears came to reality. I’ve looked for a way out for a while and finally gave up. I am here now, so come either get me and brave this place, or wait for my succeeding notes… I will be writing in hope to reach you, my lost friends.