7 movies that have marked me

I felt very connected to these storylines

I’m making a short list of movies that have marked me, from the story to the ambience and the acting… everything in the movies down below really kept my focus deeply interested from beginning to end, and they definitevely left something with me after watching them.

1. Black Swan, 2010

It’s about this wannabe “prima ballerina” who is obsessed with becoming so perfect in order to reach her almost impossible goal, that she’s actually losing her mind trying to achieve it. It gets darker and more intense as the movie unfolds, and it targets mental issues that I believe are more common than we’d like to admit.

2. Lovelace, 2013

I used to live in the Valley of Los Angeles for quite a while, and I adored it there, it has a reputation though and it’s nicknamed “Porn Valley” so obviously seeing pornstars casually getting Starbucks was not something I was unfamiliar with, although it was not as shady as it sounds… but I’ve always been interested in the behind the scenes of the porn industry, that’s why I checked this movie out. It’s really harsh and unpleasant what happens to Linda Lovelace, but it’s probably something everyone should watch.

3. The Wrestler, 2008

I’m a Mickey Rourke fan, and I was really excited when it was announced he would be the lead in this indie movie because it felt like for a while we didn’t get much of him on screen and he’s such a talented actor that he deserved something to measure up to his talent. This was a perfect fit for him in my opinion, he plays this washed out wrestler that has a couple of health and money issues, coupled with untraditional relations & breakdowns. It’s just a great movie, and it’s different from most.

4. Thirteen, 2003

I was actually thirteen years old when I saw this movie for the first time… so totally relatable, to a point. Evan Rachel Wood plays this Californian girl who’s got complicated issues to deal with for her young age, and obviously she starts acting out because she’s not able to handle things like an adult especially because the adults in her life are not the greatest example.

5. Monster, 2003

I think it’s after seeing this movie that my obsession with serial killers started… I was just so confused and scared of what a person can endure, act like, and come to be, that it was the beginning for me of trying to understand the minds of these so called people. I reckon that it’s unhealthy since it gives me nightmares, but somehow I can’t stop wondering why they are being so glamorized and have become such addictive topics to society.

6. The Virgin Suicides, 1999

This movie should be subtitled “the teenagehood depression”; Sofia Coppola is a mastermind at discerning teen angst and their feelings and accurately representing them. The Lisbon sisters are having what seems like at first, as quite a normal suburban life but in reality, behind the curtains it’s all kinds of wrong and it leads them to the ultimate sacrifice, which they prefer to keeping up any other way. It’s quite a shocking ending.

7. Into the Wild, 2007

I’m sure almost all of us at some point in our lives can relate to Emile Hirsch’s character. He’s fed up with society and its stubborn unbendable rules, he just wants to be free and exist for himself, and discover what life is really about. He goes on this road trip he’ll never be able to come back from, but at the end, even if it isn’t what he could have expected, he finally finds his answer.

MADISON KENNEDY
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Get to know me by watching these movies

These are the movies I’ve identified with the most

I picked six movies that I relate to a certain level, sometimes it’s just about the atmosphere not necesseraly the story, sometimes it’s more about the character’s feelings rather than what’s happening to them, but in all cases I’ve really felt close to what was depicted in my own way.

1. Martha Marcy May Marlene, 2011

I think everyone gets to have an interesting childhood to some degree; mine was weird mostly because there’s a whole bunch I just can’t seem to remember. It’s like I blacked out for most of it, and there’s this uneasy feeling about what actually happened to my life then. Which is why I relate to Martha in this movie, even her hallucinations and bursts.


2. Blue is the Warmest Color, 2013

I was a teenager going to high school when I fell in love for the first time, on sight… a bit like Adèle in the movie did. It was unexpected and definitevely not what I had imagined. It was something really special, and it changed what I thought of myself & the world forever.


3. Welcome to the Rileys, 2010

Mallory is kind of a runaway, we don’t know where she comes from and why she’s the way she is; which is the type of person I became after I left my first love. I couldn’t handle certain things so I just packed and left everything, even though I was still way too young for a life like that on the road. I was secretive, but I met great people who ultimately lead me back home.

4. To the Bone, 2017

This was the worst peak of my life – back home, I had to deal with my eating disorder. I looked like a ghost of myself, my parents in an attempt to help me get through it gave me the one thing they knew would make me happy : they sent me away to study abroad in Los Angeles, it had always been a dream of mine. I met my best friend there and we became like family to each other, stranded across the world in the strangest of cities together.

5. La La Land, 2016

Then I think I fell in love again… but who could say really. It was such a short-lived romance if I can call it that way, but in the midst & glamour of the city of angels it felt like magic. I had never felt so light and safe before, it didn’t need words. That’s when I realized that my heart belonged forever to LA, and that it had chosen this place because of that moment in time, as the only place that I could ever consider as my real home.

6. Paper Towns, 2015

Then the real life struggles hit me, which I wasn’t prepared for and did not want to take responsibility of. I realized that maybe I could never make my dreams come true, but I did not want to just give up and become the cliché that is anyone else I knew. I didn’t want to fit in, and be part of society the way it was demanded of me, I wanted to be free so I ran… and I’m still on the run. Like Margo, and my best friends are supporting me & they mean the world.

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CLINIQUE Pep-Start Eye Cream review

Liked it despite the final grade…

This is going to be a mixed-up feeling kinda review.

My eyes are super extra sensitive, they even get swollen and allergies from natural eye care products, which makes sense : pollen (amongst other). I always have to pay attention to what type of cream, oil or gel I’m getting for around that area & it’s a total nightmare. I love Clinique’s skincare line, I trust them, never had an issue with that brand, their stuff are dermatologically & ophthalmologically tested.

I know whatever I get from Clinique won’t give me allergies, which is a big plus. This eye cream is so light, it’s almost a gel and I do prefer gels in general, so it was just really nice and easy to apply. I liked that sensation and it moistured okay, my dehydration wrinkles didn’t go away for sure but the fine lines were blurred out overtime but definitively no new wrinkle-whatsoever appeared while I was using this.

Honestly, it did a good job on my dark circles. I’ve read reviews of people who didn’t notice a difference and I’m sure it has to do with the fact that we all have a different skin, so what works for me might not work for someone else, but I saw the effect on me and I would totally get that “pep-start” they were talking about, my eyes looked more refreshed and it was lightly enjoyable because physically noticeable.

Now the things that I didn’t like and became a deal breaker for me are the following….

First, I hated the tube it came in. Like, there’s this stupid ball pit that you gotta open up with your thumb so you can squeeze some cream out through it, and it’s impossible to get all the cream towards the end because it just gets stuck in there and it’s a waste of product. Supposedly, you have to use that ball on your eyes & dark circles, I didn’t because it’s made of plastic and weird.

The second thing I hated, because it made my mornings a little more annoying : unless I used a tiny bit of the cream around the area, the least possible for hydration purposes, and waited for it to dry out completely, I couldn’t do my eye makeup because it would get completely smudgy and disgusting. I don’t like not moisturizing my eye area enough, because it’s so dry but I couldn’t have it my way.

Lastly, it’s just not moisturizing enough for me and since that’s what I actually need this isn’t a good fit. Even though overall it can be a good cream, the tube is almost like a toy in my opinion and better for people who don’t have dry skin like me, or fine lines. Maybe for some teenagers, just to get started on eye care.

GRADE 3/5 I wouldn’t recommend it, unless it was a young person who didn’t really need much moisture since it does give that “pep-start” look and help with dark circles. I have a very dry skin all over, so obviously this wasn’t right for me, I still enjoyed the texture and the light effect it had.

PRICE 0.5 oz | 15 ml 26.50$

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FRESH Soy Face Cleanser review

You gotta wash your face…

A month ago I headed to a Sephora that was nearby – the one in Santa Monica, on Third Street Promenade. I needed help, and I knew that I could find it in that place. My problem was my skin obviously… I started to break out pretty bad over the summer. For whatever reason, my skin became allergic to some ingredients & brands and everything I had and kept using just made it worse.

So I had to stop and talk with an expert; I was really happy to find myself in the hands of a couple great employees of that Sephora. They literally saved my skin with never-heard before tips and how to manage my daily skincare routine, and add some weekly things that were much needed.

This week I’m gonna talk to you about this amazing face wash. It’s the best cleanser I’ve ever used in my life, and I am totally not over exaggerating at all. I was actually so surprised because guess what ? I thought my skin was allergic to water, so I would actually never wash my face, just use micellar water and a toner only to find out that I was doing it completely wrong.

They “tested” my skin with some weird devices and told me that I didn’t have combination – oily skin like I always thought, but that my skin was normal on the dry side & sensitive. A total shocker because all my life I never thought that was the case. They also basically told me what I was doing wasn’t appropriate, thus explaining my breakouts. Guys really… if you’re in the LA area, go to that Sephora because it saves lives.

I got this cleanser with the recommendation to always wash my face, every single day, morning & evening without a fault, because that’s what could help get rid of all the day and night residues. Obviously, I was worried to expose my skin to so much water… two weeks later, I was barely breaking out. That combined with the other products I got, completely changed the deal.

Every time I would use this cleanser my skin would feel so clean and fresh, and it was just the best sensation. I’d never felt my skin cleaner before, this was like reviving my skin and prepping it for my routine. It was like a clean slate, and much needed for me… it rebalanced it all. I absolutely adore this product, I would recommend it to anyone. It’s in my opinion, just the best face wash ever.

GRADE 5/5 I would rebuy this forever and keep it in my drawer as my go-to if I didn’t have to test and review other products sometimes, but this is more like a fave of mine, I think I just found my Holy Grail for a face cleanser.

PRICE 1.7 oz | 50 ml 15$ – 5.1 oz | 150 ml 38$

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OLE HENRIKSEN Truth Serum review

Vitamin C is key !

Hello everyone ! I’ve decided I am going to review the beauty products that I use, I want to give my opinion on them so that you can get an overall idea and maybe make up your mind if you were hesisating, or searching for a certain thing. I am a beauty products hoarder, I’m totally into skincare, I try a lot of different brands etc. I’m only going to review products I have completely finished using though, because I want to have the full experience before judging it.

Now that we’re done with this explanatory introduction, let’s get to it.

This Truth Serum from Ole Henriksen is one of their best sellers. It contains Vitamin C, which is like super important for your aging skin. It’s basically THE proactive ingredient must have, and it apparently also helps regerate your skin if you have scars and things like that.

Personally I have good genes, so my skin makes me look way younger than I am, I don’t really need an anti-aging anything at all. But the reason why I still wanted to try this one out, is because it’s mostly proactive and I thought it would be great to treat my skin in advance kind of. Plus it’s natural, so it would definitely not damage my skin and I do have acne scars, which convinced me to buy this because who doesn’t want to get rid of those.

My experience was extremely positive, so much that I almost bought it again… from the moment I started using it I noticed a difference in my complexion, instead of being dull it seemed a little brighter & healthier. I loved the smell, like oranges. It’s one of my favorite scent and it was delightful to apply. I have a skin that is prone to breakouts but it never made me breakout, plus I noticed that I didn’t breakout as bad as I used to; I used to have big scabs on my face, but now my acne is to a minimum, almost nothing in comparison to before using the serum.

I feel like if I had used it longer, my scars would have been more faded away, but honestly this serum did such a good job to my face that I didn’t even go out wearing makeup anymore because my skin looked nicer than it has in a long time, and it felt great. I didn’t notice anything about the anti-aging effect, but probably because I don’t really have any wrinkle… so, obviously I can’t judge on that. That’s why I’m not buying it again, because I believe this serum is for people who are at least 35 years old & older. Probabaly, even more like 40’s.

Definitevely not my age range. My skin is still young & supple, I think I need a serum that’s doing everything this one does, minus made for people who need anti-aging. I believe that if you use things that aren’t adapted to your needs, in the long run it’ll cause more harm than good.

GRADE 4/5 I would recommend to at least try it if you’ve considered it before, but only if you’re in your 30’s because I’m not sure it’s really necessary otherwise, there’s other alternative serums for under that age.

PRICE 1 oz | 30 ml 48$ – 1.7 oz | 50 ml 72$ – 3.4 oz | 100 ml 128$

MADISON KENNEDY
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i don’t need a significant other, just a significant income

Urban explorationi don't need a significant other, just a significant income

Here are a couple shots from a very urban area in Zurich, Switzerland. A lot of cool graffiti and street art there, I absolutely loved visiting the place with my best friend. Bright colors in an industrial setting…i don't need a significant other, just a significant incomei don't need a significant other, just a significant incomei don't need a significant other, just a significant income

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what do you mean a thesaurus isn’t a dinosaur

hello grunge version of you…what do you mean a thesaurus isnt a dinosaur

I “messed up” my model a little bit for this photoshoot – I had this idea of shooting pictures of her in a bathtub, with this rock girl look. She wasn’t up for the grunge part, she thought we were gonna do something glamorous but I just needed her to trust me on this, because I knew it would look bomb in the end.
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